Ok, so I've read a bunch of rants lately (Lena/Isy/JamesDias) and it's inspired me to write my own but here's the thing. I haven't been angry enough to write one. I've tried, believe me I've tried but the fire in my belly has turned to butterflies ever since JONAS came out on the disney channel (love). I figure I'm sick of missing out on this ranting sub-culture and you're probably sick of missing out on me missing out. So here's the plan, I'm gonna rant about how I haven't been angry enough to rant. That should get the ball rolling and we'll see where we end up.

1) I should be angry enough to rant! and it annoys me that I'm not because I damn well should! Now I'm not gonna get all emo and say that I've been through what no one else has because I'm sure I haven't. But whether I'm the first or last to go through something shouldn't lessen the impact. That's like someone being shot in the head one week and another person being shot the next week but the doctors tell the second person "Stop complaining. This happened to someone last week." No. Fuck that! I have just as much right to complain about stuff as ANYONE does. and I damn well will! So to every Nancy Jo out there (including myself!), stop putting a cap on my complaints. I'd even say that complaining about a problem is an important part of coming up with the solution and therefore should be encouraged! So yeah! I'm angry because I haven't been angry when I have every reason to be! RAGE.

2) You know what, I never really did actually *like* you. I found you very judgmental and you made things uncomfortable. For some inexplicable reason though, I was often convinced, at least surface wise, of your awesomeness. So for years, I accepted being around you, and for years, you never really let me know you. Not easily anyway. Sure I could make assumptions but that's all they were. You fabricate this fancy image of yourself when really, you're just very insecure. Under that thick ass layer of arrogance and judging and crap, you're just really concerned about being accepted by others as well as by yourself. You need to just, seriously pull your socks up. That is my advice to you which I will never give because I don't have the balls. Pull your socks up and let people in under that layer of douche. They won't judge as harshly as you judge yourself (or others) and I think it would do you a world of good to really strip off all that shit and just really relate to another person. Because once you relate yourself (who you *really* are not who you want people to think you are) to another person, you find out, that no, you're not that strange and so no, there's no point in being insecure about it. Because seriosuly dude. If you're insecure about YOURSELF. That's gonna ripple out into every other aspect of your life and screw around a whole heap. Which it has right? I can tell.

3) YOU. Are an idiot. You used to be pretty alright. Like I used to really enjoy you and I'm not saying I can't enjoy you ever again I'm just saying I haven't for a very long time and I think it's because you've let yourself go douche wise. We always knew you were never very good at committing and we always knew you had that arrogant side and we always knew you had a bit of a temper but seriosuly dude. It's like I can't even RELATE to you anymore without suddenly being confronted with the douche factor. To be brutal, I don't think you can rectify this. The conditions you've set yourself are such that if there were to be some sort of intervention to get you back to being awesome you'd just get on your high horse and get really angry, you'd then render all our points stupid and therefore irrelevent to you. Meaning you wouldn't have to worry about them at all and you could go straight back to life as a prick. Nice. Man. I really hope you enjoy it. Because seriosuly I'm over it. You're not that good.

4) You are a credit whore and you stole my joke in year 9 and claimed it as your own. I have not forgotten or forgiven (didn't even apologise!). You probably can't even remember doing it because I think it comes subconsciously to you because you do it so often. You'll twist and turn a story so that it suits you in relation to whoever you're telling. Sometimes I think you even make yourself believe your lies. You think you're good but you really, really are not. I don't care about how much weight you lost so stop telling me. If I cared about anything to do with you I'd come to you about it. When it works the other way around it means people do not care. You should try and understand this sometime because it is something fundamental that you trip over again and again and again. Also, I don't like consoling you + you're bad at consoling me. (Which is why I never got you to do it again) You're extensively hypocritical and it does my head in because I don't understand it. That one time I told you not to say anything, you did. I remember. I wasn't even, telling you not to tell because I was like, embarrassed or whatever, I just didn't want that person to actually know because then that person would have been put off and I didn't want that person to be put off (duh). But you adore drama over a friend's wishes so whatevz. All those times you've told me not to tell I haven't. Yet you still lecture me some before you tell me ANYTHING. Like I'm out to get you! fuck off! I'm not. If I were I'd seriously be considering a rather large change in lifestyle. Also. You've never been in love. And if your head weren't so fat I'd tell you to read this > 1 Corinthians 13:4-13, however you're so self destructive, I honestly doubt you ever will experience love. But go ahead and prove me wrong dude. Prove me wrong.

5) If you were actually smart, you wouldn't try and super impose yourself onto anyone else. It annoys me and it annoys everyone else. If you really truly believe that your way is the right way for EVERYONYE (fuck off because it isn't) then you should take a completely different, less annoying approach to persuading people. You're getting no where with what you're doing because you're being too aggressive about it. Also I think you're arrogant and hypocritical AND a pussy. toughen the eff up. I believe in you -_-;

6) You've become too dependant on them and so have they. It's not even like. Healthy dependency. It's shit dependency that's gonna give you shit development and you'll end up with a bad job and lots of kids. I was talking to someone else about it and it's true, when you say I love you you're actually saying I need you and when they say I love you too they're saying I love being needed. You both should take unbiased points of view and really poke at it because if you don't you're gonna wind up down the track with years and years put into this unpoked baby of a crap house! It'd be hard but as if it's not necessary for a good relationship? Look at it this way, if you aren't meant to be together then you're not going to withstand the poking session and you can move on. If you are then you will and you'll become stronger. Where's the fail? oh that's right, there isn't. Grow a dick and just do it. You'll thank me when you discover you're truly happy (not fake crap happy that you've completely psychologically convinced yourself you are).

7)You need to calm down. I'm not in a different mood. I never have been in a different mood. I'm Betsy and I always will be. Honestly man you've clicked something in your head that makes you come up with all these excuses for me being a douche and the excuses are directly linked to where you are socially, personally and pubescently. It's ok because I can wait for you to become awesome but man, while I'm waiting just ease up on me or something because it gets tiresome having to explain the same thing again a million different ways so you can get it through your head which you don't do anyway because you've convinced yourself whatever I say is dumb becsause I'm in "a mood"! Whateveeeerrrr!

8) You're both annoying, arrogant and nosy and that's why I don't tell you anything. HA.

9) Stop talking crap about her because it's not true. You're an idiot and I can tell and that shits you because you think no one else can tell but when I was 8 I stood up to you and you slammed that stupid door in my face because you couldn't stand being stood up to and ever since then you've seen me as a threat. well maybe I am! maybe you've got every right to be scared and stupid and defensive because you know that I know that you're an idiot and you don't want to give me any evidence to prove it. Well, I've got you figured out anyway so eat eggs.
Ps. She's not better than anyone. In fact, I find her even MORE annoying than any of them! She's matieralistic and unfair and it's because of you. She doesn't let anyone in because you've trained her not to. I think it's incredibly selfish and insecure to do that. I really really do. She'll grow up with terrible values and she won't be able to grow as a person because in the real world people don't give a crap if she's emotionally unstable unless you're around. And FYI, I'm using your computer to write this.

10) ok wow. I'm not sure, exactly, how I feel. I'm not even angry? Maybe I am. Point is, it didn't hurt as much as you think it did but then because you thought it did, it did. IKR.

11) Y'know I think the times I've been happy about you have been greatly varied and maybe that's to do with me more than it is you but it doesn't matter, I'm trying to tell you that I'm not always happy with you and whether you know that or not it's the way it is. I often find you INFURIATING because you're so damned selfish and that comes down to stuff that you've established way way way deep down which makes it way way way hard to get around. You're not always right (neither am I) so maybz stop talking to me like you are.

12) I'm sick of your big fat thumb smothering my life. I can never seem to assert myself without you getting your knickers in a knot. Half the time you're wrong about me anyway and you should shut up and stop telling me what to do and who to be because no, you do not know me inside and out. I'm not even sure who I am inside and out so how could YOU know huh? Next time you tell me to do this or do that or be like this or not to do that---YEAH that's another thing! you're always telling me what NOT to do, like you have some diction over my effing life! the hell! You never had that power and I never had it over you so get over it. Even if you were under the impression you had it, you shouldn't anymore because you removed it yourself. Or at least that's what you think. I on the other hand know I had a larger role than you think. But I'm not going into that. We're just like. Two people. Ok? Good.

13) I don't feel the same way. And if you dare spiral into emoness I'll shit off and not talk to you at all because dead set. that's emotional blackmail and I'm not gonna get caught up in it. I've picked up the pieces WAY too many times and you never seem to learn. So I'm not gonna pick them up again. That even goes for when I might be the centre of the problem. Bitchy right? It's to the point where I don't even care. I really am just over trying to *make* you listen. trying to *make* you feel good. You're the only one that can do it. No one else. Stop trying to get them to because it won't work. Idiot.

Alright I'm done. Satisfying much? To get things clear I harbour no bad feelings toward anyone, really. And if you can see yourself in any of my bitchass points, chances are it's not about you. That doesn't mean that maybe you shouldn't HEED. But yeah, probz not you, I was obscure with my choice of subjects. Hokah bai!